It’s a thinky post today!
Doesn’t it sometimes feel like things go around on the internet like the collective in Star Trek? Lots of posts recently about accepting ourselves or giving up dieting or what have you.
As you know, I have been struggling a bit with body image the last few weeks. The funny thing is that is coincided with me not weighing myself for this month as one of my goals. I don’t know if that is coincidence, because I don’t weigh myself every day, or if it is just the turn a mind will take sometimes for whatever unknown reason.
I really have been seeing myself as bigger than I am. Yes, I am 10 pounds heavier than I used to be, but that certainly is not 100 pounds heavier, and I have stayed right around this range (give or take 5 pounds) for the last year and a half. Yet, I feel almost like I look like I did at 250, which I know isn’t true.
That is the weird part. I don’t know where that feeling comes from. Anyhoo, there has been just a little cavalcade of posts and articles the last few weeks that really have kind of fallen into my lap lately. I am not one to believe in signs, destiny, fate or anything like that, but maybe I have just noticed these in particular because I really need to think about them.
Some of the posts that struck a cord with me lately. These are little excerpts from the posts, but please mark them all to read in full.
Shauna – “Anyway, there I was feeling like a stinking fraud and like nothing I wrote would ever be worthy until the day I could report, Hey folks, you can come back now. I’m normal again! I match the After photo!”
Cammy – “Here’s wishing us all a peaceful spirit and the strength to accept it. We really ARE worthy, just as we are right now”
Yoni Freedhoff (this is an old post, but I love it). ” Set your goal to do your best and never be discouraged if it’s not as good as someone else’s.”
Important points for me:
” If you can’t find a way to be happy in this moment, right now, regardless of your size, shape or weight, then you probably won’t feel happy 10, 20 or 30 lbs less.” Totally true for me. There is that fine line you walk between trying to improve because you want to and improve because you aren’t happy.
“Body esteem has NOTHING to do with actual hard numbers. You can find women who are 200+ lbs and who love every curve. It’s a state of MIND.” It’s all about attitude.
“Is your physique the only thing you have to offer the world?” Hell no!
Definitely read the rest of that one. It’s good.
I am just going to be me. I am going to be happy with how I am right this minute, regardless of whether I ever get off 10 more pounds. It doesn’t matter in the scheme of the world. Sure, there are going to be people who judge me because people do, let’s face it, but their judgement of me has no value to me – and I need to not judge myself, either.