Okay, it’s time to get real and get cracking. I want to get off that weight I gained during the house closing stress of last year. I have been sort of muddling around with a few days being really focused on track with my eating, then eating too much chocolate or cereal in the evening. I know a lot of this has to do with the freaking cold and I seem to want to eat and stay under a blanket.
John and I were just talking the other day about how we aren’t outside at all anymore. On Sunday when the temps got into the low 30s and sunny, we were rejoicing outside – albeit while shoveling, but it was enjoyable. Kind of sad that the 30s felt so warm. We actually spend a fair amount of time outside biking, walking, gardening (okay, not John on this one) and just being outside. With temps so bitter cold now it just is impossible to be outside even bundled up, let alone the walks aren’t really clear enough to walk. So, it does make one a bit stir crazy. I know spring will come, but I just feel at that breaking point and so I eat to soothe and entertain myself.
It seems hard to get back into a weight loss mode after a long time. You get used to eating more and knowing there are certain things I have to cut out.
It’s balancing wants and needs. I can have treats, but I just don’t need them every day. When we go out for coffee, I don’t need to have a sweet on the side every time we go. I can just stick with a latte or coffee. In the evening, I can have a snack, but I don’t need to go back for a second helping. It’s just small changes like that. I don’t need to do huge drastic things because I generally eat pretty well, just too much.
It’s time to put on my big girl pants and do it. Sometimes I feel resentful if I want something, but I don’t need it and know the better choice is to not have it (or have less). Seriously, it’s like I am 5 years old or something. I have to retrain myself once again and that is harder to do for me now. But, it must be done. It’s one of those times where I have to say, “Just do it already and quit dinking around”.