Category Archives: binge

Non emotional bingeing.

I’ve been reading a book on a starvation experiment, which I will talk about when I finish it (quite interesting, actually) and it got me thinking.
I have never been a real emotional binge eater. I do eat from emotions sometimes, but not necessarily in a binge way. It would be more like just saying – “I want something comforting, let’s go out for ice cream”. Then I would eat that and be done.

However, I do have what I would term as physical bingeing, where I just can’t seem to get full. Without any emotional trigger or stress or anything like that. I had one of those this weekend with cashews. It was like I could not physically stop myself from eating them. I know someone who doesn’t binge can’t really understand what this is like, but those of you that do know exactly what I mean. I would walk away from the jar, then come back, walk away, think about them, come back. Until I got really full. I can’t even get away with saying that it was a healthy binge – a term I don’t like anyway because a binge is a binge.

So anyway, reading this book made me think it was actually just my body forcing me to eat. When we restrict calories, we literally are trying to starve our bodies into submission (i.e. weight loss). Calories in, calories out. However – the body itself does not comprehend that what you are doing is supposed to be good for it. It just requires x number of calories to function and isn’t getting them – so it sends signals to the brain to find food. I wonder if prolonged calorie restriction taken on by those of us with a significant amount of weight to lose doesn’t create this effect in the body. Like the body just pushes and pushes you to eat more, and since there is food available (as we aren’t in a rationed or famine situation today) the biological urge is too strong to resist. Not that that means weakness by any stretch, but a survival mechanism. Does maybe give some credence to a high-calorie day, I suppose.

Sometimes I wish I were a scientist that studied weight loss, there is so much we don’t know.

I am not eating anymore tonight!

Ugh. I was doing fine today, then for some reason after dinner I just munched and munched. Too many cashews, and some Grapenuts, and some chocolate chips.
Amazing how you can binge even when you have only good things in the house!

Not really sure what brought it on, but I am not letting myself eat another bite tonight. I am full, but still want to eat.

I am going to go up, brush my teeth and sit on my hands if I have to.

Almost the holiday!

Boy, today sure feels like Friday! Got up early and went out for a jog this morning. Construction makes for a great wake up call….gggrrrr…..
I went 3.25 miles again. The jog felt tired and stiff, not sure if it was because of donating blood yesterday, or the early hour. Or both! LOL!
Who would have ever thought I would be running 3 miles! Certainly not me!

Got back on food track today after the ice cream mishap from last night. I am amazed at how easy it is to get back on track, without it turning into a multi-day binge or full blown relapse. There are those days where I feel my hold on control is tenuous at best, and those days where I have the iron grip. Got the iron grip back today.

Still waiting for my tax refund check to get here. It was supposed to go out at the end of June, and no show yet. I really need some clothes!! Might just have to go get them early and pay myself back. I know I am going to shop for size 12s — yippeee!!! I might get a pair of 10s as a motivation pair of jeans. I’d love to fit into those by August.

Stress bingeing

I really want to eat today. Under a lot of real estate stress right now. I had some brownies yesterday, so I really want to be in control today. But, it is hard.

There isn’t really junk in the house, but any true binger knows that you can find anything to eat if you really want to. I don’t want to eat a bunch of strawberries just to be eating something, you know? That doesn’t help me deal with the issue of using food for comfort. I am not of the mindset that a binge is okay as long as it is healthy food. A binge is a binge.

This is one of those days that I wish I had a punching bag…..

Weigh in day!

Lost 0.2 pounds this week. No big deal, I didn’t eat poorly last week, so could be any number of things.

I slept very poorly last night, though – and today I feel like a bottomless pit. I don’t know why being tired makes me hungry, but it does. I have eaten about 2000 calories today, which is quite high for me. Could be worse – but I don’t like that empty feeling. The extra calories are coming from the foods I normally have in the house, at least it isn’t McDonald’s or anything. Still bothersome to have a binge, though.
I did do some extra exercise to help offset some of the food.

We were planning on going our to split a calzone tomorrow, but I might put the kibosh on that, since I did not eat well today.