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Normal so far

Happy MLK day.

Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.
– Martin Luther King, Jr.

 source – google images.

I finally heard about my labs.  Of course, the phone call came while I was in the shower this morning  🙄 . They left a message that it was normal, but I called back to get the actual numbers.  Since I am paying full price on these labs tests, I want every single number in my hot little hands!  I have the copies now as well.  I am normal in all categories.  Not even low-normal, but normal-normal.  I spent a lot of the weekend reading up on the thyroid and I thought for sure with symptoms that I have that there would be the diagnosis of that, but at least blood test wise,  it appears fine.  A lot of perimenopausal symptoms – yay….not.

No anemia. No diabetes either (yippee!!).  So, that now leaves going to the eye doctor and see what they say.  That appointment is on Tuesday.  Hope *they* have an answer for me.  I don’t like walking around with red eyes.  They don’t bother me, thank goodness.  They just look funny.

Also, for those that didn’t see on Facebook, the photographer that did the photo shoot for the First For Women article posted some of the shoot pics on her blog.  You can see them here

Funny how just the way you stand or the outfit you have on can made a difference.  I was not comfortable in the gold top, although other people liked it  and you can tell. I swear I look heavier in that top even wearing the same pants LOL! The other 2 outfits I loved and it shows!  Flared pants are a short curvy woman’s best friend!!

My eats were really not exciting today.  I ate well, which felt good to get focused again.  I did do some stress eating as I mentioned before, plus football snacks!

Dinner was good, though, and came out with a yummy looking shot.

The chicken is topped with Laughing Cow and hot sauce in an attempt to get warm.  Didn’t work for long, though.

John and I decided to brave the cold and go out for wi-fi time.  We both have our computers here LOL!

Yeah, I brought my own grapes.  This is the new Blonde roast from Starbucks.  I will give it a thumbs up.  It doesn’t have the charred taste that their other blends have, which is quite nice.  Gives it much more depth of flavor.

I hope I can make it to the gym tomorrow.  We have snow expected tonight and a messy commute, so will see.  Hopefully an answer for my eyes as well.

Superbowl and a 'normal' moment.

It’s superbowl day, the day in which more potato chips and beer are consumed than any other day of the year! Too bad the Broncos aren’t playing. Oh well, I will support the Cards today, for the newbies! In honor of the festivities, I went out for a 35 minute run today. The temps are a bit above freezing, so you have to take what you can get, right? It was actually a really nice run, because I wasn’t dripping sweat LOL! My feet were really hot, though. I have mesh in my shoes, but I swear my feet were almost sizzling through the snow pack as I ran!

I had a very strange moment yesterday. We were out at a craft show milling around, and I had taken off my coat. This show was in some sort of ballroom or reception room, and there were mirrors on one of the walls. I glanced at myself and noticed that I was at the very least the same size or smaller than the majority of the people there. I was normal. Normal looking. I don’t know if someone who has not been significantly overweight can really understand where I’m coming from. It was one of those “Is that really me??” moments.

I mentioned it to my husband last night, and his response was “You are normal, actually smaller than the average size woman.” (Can you believe he knows this fact? – guess he does listen to me after all!)
And he’s right. The average woman is 12-14, and I wear an 8. Which, ironically, is the same size as Jessica Simpson, who is getting crucified in the media for gaining weight!

I really wonder how long it will take to get used to be normal? When normal will *feel* normal….